On Sunday, I volunteered at the cinema. Got to watch The Fault In Our Stars finally, it was a lovely movie. Did provoke some musings which I have yet to express clearly. Got recognised as "the cool Marvel fan", which made me smile.
Monday marked the return of TAFE (tertiary education) and I managed to finish the project I'd been working on.
I also started something I've been putting off for a long time due to anxiety, which was joining a "penpal" site, as a way to meet like-minded people. There really aren't any people in this town I have enough in common with to actually maintain a friendship, but the stigma surrounding penpals and internet friends has put me off. Also, any form of communication I'm not sure about is really confronting so I tend to avoid it if possible, and get really anxious just thinking about it. Simply asking a stranger on Tumblr for a suggestion was a huge deal, let alone following up on it, joining a site and responding to people.
Today, in general, did not go well. Spent most of it in bed unable to convince my body to let me get up. Managed to get up and dressed around 3, turned it into a sort of productive day toward the end. Unfortunately, the amount of things going on that make the anxiety flare up means that the smallest things are now setting me off and making it a permanent state. Churning stomach, high heart rate, difficulty breathing, pain in the legs, that sort of stuff.
Sorry. This is a really boring post.
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